I know that we haven’t spoken in a while, but I thought it would be best to have a bit of distance between us.
I thought it would help with the pain. I thought I could start to forget.
That was foolish and I apologize. You are part of me. You always will be. Recently, I was reminded of that.
I wonder if it is fair to feel a little bit sad even though you are happy.
Happiness is complicated. I don’t think you can experience it, truly experience it, without knowing some element of sadness.
I heard some absolutely terrific news and though I was so very happy to know it, a part of me, the part of me that misses you so desperately, couldn’t help but ache.
I am struggling with the guilt and I hope you don’t think any less of me for it.
I will speak with you again soon.
But in the interim, I will fully embrace the happiness that surrounds me.