I know that we haven’t spoken in a while, but I thought it would be best to have a bit of distance between us.

I thought it would help with the pain.  I thought I could start to forget.

That was foolish and I apologize.  You are part of me.  You always will be.  Recently, I was reminded of that.

I wonder if it is fair to feel a little bit sad even though you are happy.

Happiness is complicated.  I don’t think you can experience it, truly experience it, without knowing some element of sadness.

I heard some absolutely terrific news and though I was so very happy to know it, a part of me, the part of me that misses you so desperately, couldn’t help but ache.

I am struggling with the guilt and I hope you don’t think any less of me for it.

I will speak with you again soon.

But in the interim, I will fully embrace the happiness that surrounds me.

Yours.  Always.

Me