My Dear Sweet Briar,
Lately, I can seem to get you off my mind. I have been dreaming of you.
Dreams that, at times, drape around my shoulders like a thick blanket. Warm and heavy, I find them comforting.
It is in those times that I forget.
I forget what it took to be where I am today. I forget about the choices I made that deliberately, purposefully took you from my arms.
It has been difficult to come to terms with those choices and every time I am convinced that I have, you somehow appear and I am broken again.
I know that what I have done was the right thing to do. Knowing that, and living with the choice are very different.
I tried, I truly did.
Writing these letters to you is all I can do and I hope they eventually find you. For, now, that is all I can do.
Time passes so quickly and right now, it seems that all I can do is breathe.
I have to find my way.
But I know that you will always be with me. In my heart and in my soul.
Love you always,