The space you once were

Calls to me, Taunts me

Mocks me

It knows me better than you

It knows my fears

My desires

My loneliness

It surrounds me with riling laughter and judgment

Its arms like weighted blankets surround me

Crushing me

Its hands placed over my eyes and ears

So I don’t bear witness as I drown

And yet, I live

Day after Day

Week after Week

Year after Year,

Moving round and round, as though everything is fine

Only, it’s the night that I am afraid of

How it hovers and drapes

The only solace is its consistency

Without you, I loathe when it is upon me

It is the night that proves my constant and ever-faithful companion

Here.

In this space you used to be