For The Quiet - Coming November 2020 This website is very much like my journal and I tend to share things here that I may not share with just anyone. There is something comforting and protective in sitting behind the screen of a laptop and talking about the things in my life that feel like [...]
How many times have I ended a thought with And here we are I miss you today I said your whole name out loud for the first time in nearly a year and it hurt so bad. I sat for a long time, crying, feeling sorry for me, and for you No one will ever [...]
My Dearest Briar, I send you happiest wishes for this new year. Being here, without you, has been difficult. Far more difficult than I could have ever imagined. It is in this - emptiness - that I have had the time to reflect. To make peace. To find strength. But there is nothing here. Nothing [...]
My Dear Sweet Briar, Lately, I can seem to get you off my mind. I have been dreaming of you. Bittersweet dreams. Dreams that, at times, drape around my shoulders like a thick blanket. Warm and heavy, I find them comforting. It is in those times that I forget. I forget what it took to [...]
Dear Briar, It's raining again today and it mirrors how my heart aches. I could not get you off my mind this weekend. Nothing could distract me. And I tried. I really did. I tried to watch television, to sleep. I even tended the garden. But you were there. In everything. Every bloom, every character. [...]
I know that we haven't spoken in a while, but I thought it would be best to have a bit of distance between us. I thought it would help with the pain. I thought I could start to forget. That was foolish and I apologize. You are part of me. You always will be. Recently, [...]
My Dearest Briar, I'm sitting on a train this morning, thinking about you. I'm always thinking of you. It's raining here. I often wonder what it is like where you are. Does it rain? I would imagine if it does, the most beautiful gardens would bloom. Here, without you, the grey skies darken and a [...]
Dear Briar, I write you today because I now know what needs to be done and I know that means the only way I will ever talk to you is by letter. Here, in words, on paper, we can be authentic. Ourselves. We can be together. Out there, well, there can be no we. No [...]
I miss you today. I miss you every day, but today there is an ache. A hollowness. Today, in my heart and mind, I will keep you close. For company and for peace. It's quiet here. We can just sit and watch the water lap the shore. Yours Patiently waiting, Me
