For The Quiet - Coming November 2020 This website is very much like my journal and I tend to share things here that I may not share with just anyone. There is something comforting and protective in sitting behind the screen of a laptop and talking about the things in my life that feel like [...]
What remains at the end of the day is all that defines us. Nothing. There is an empty space where we used to be. It cannot be said that I did not try. Though I am sure there are those who would claim I didn’t, Where is the lie? I did what I thought had [...]
Raging rivers flow through me Threatening to tear me apart I trust in but one thing to thwart that which would consume me Only you can quell the battle within With arms wrapped tight around me Waves crash upon the rocky shore I know I am safe And soon, like the passing of millennia [...]
Fight It’s all you can do It’s instinct now One foot in front of the other You march Bone tired One weary foot, then the next Uphill Mountainous, treacherous To nowhere That’s how it seems Still, you trudge Heavy of heart but clear of mind Careful, reasoned movements To salvation vaguely promised Never fully described [...]
The space you once were Calls to me, Taunts me Mocks me It knows me better than you It knows my fears My desires My loneliness It surrounds me with riling laughter and judgment Its arms like weighted blankets surround me Crushing me Its hands placed over my eyes and ears So I don't bear witness [...]
How many times have I ended a thought with And here we are I miss you today I said your whole name out loud for the first time in nearly a year and it hurt so bad. I sat for a long time, crying, feeling sorry for me, and for you No one will ever [...]
He hadn’t slept in days Needed to keep moving His beige hoodie looked new. Ish. Ill-fitting, but warm. Necessary. More than a 5 o’clock shadow across hollow cheeks, The greys show through Now more salt, than pepper Would they recognize him? He fixed his hair, slightly thinner on top Shadows stretched [...]
How you do that Bring me to my knees with nothing but a glance The light in your eyes when they fall upon me from across a room I am spotlighted, yet no one sees Your gaze, it physically touches me Warms me I know I am safe, yet I am exposed How you manage [...]
You say you are so hard done by You want my sympathies You want me to hear you, yet be silent How dare you. You claim to know me If you knew me All the things that make me Who I truly am You would be ashamed You should be ashamed Yet This is all [...]
Tears prick my eyes Years pass like shock waves through my body Time, a sucking wound, in the center of my soul So unassuming, who knew it could be a weapon It pours over me, molten, melting away barriers Nerves exposed and vulnerable I acknowledge my strength, my insignificance I am humbled Varied, exciting and [...]
