How many times have I ended a thought with And here we are I miss you today I said your whole name out loud for the first time in nearly a year and it hurt so bad. I sat for a long time, crying, feeling sorry for me, and for you No one will ever [...]
You say you are so hard done by You want my sympathies You want me to hear you, yet be silent How dare you. You claim to know me If you knew me All the things that make me Who I truly am You would be ashamed You should be ashamed Yet This is all [...]
Wading ankle-deep in the confluence of the error of my ways Trying to avoid the rising tides, I seek higher ground It is of no use Storm drains are choked with the onset of the sudden storm They simply can't keep up Water is now waist-deep and rain, driving and stinging, blinds me I press [...]
It was all Fake Everything It was a Front - It was a Ruse It's True All this time you spend building this thing - you have been Lying How hollowing to see it for the first time It's a Lie What happens now? Plan B was always Plan A Where is the Path? How [...]
I Laugh, Alone Do you remember when Dot dot dot I fill in the blanks Left to laugh alone The smile on my face is for both of us But only I understand its sadness Yours is a plastic smile A mask It cuts deep to see you try Even deeper [...]
What does it take? Everything. All that you have. All of the time. Here I sit, trying to justify. Rationalize. Make peace And you - there. No heavy lifting. Eager to accept anything I say. I almost feel bad, If it weren't for the hole in me where those things used to go. So, I [...]
Today is December 20th and I will be back in the swing of things in exactly 14 days. Between now and then comes Christmas, Boxing Day, New Year's Eve and New Year's Day. And if I am being honest about it, I am not really in the holiday spirit. Having been off work for the [...]
Are you a phantom? Sent to remind of me of past sins A figment of my imaginings perhaps? Here to curse and swear Are you the ghost of what could have been? What may still be? Or, are you but a shadow? Long and reaching, when light is spilled in the darkness [...]
Reflections on a month that flew by too fast and a goal I felt slipping away
My Dear Sweet Briar, Lately, I can seem to get you off my mind. I have been dreaming of you. Bittersweet dreams. Dreams that, at times, drape around my shoulders like a thick blanket. Warm and heavy, I find them comforting. It is in those times that I forget. I forget what it took to [...]
