Recriminations, old and new, haunt corners Whispering doubts Filling empty spaces with angst Inharmonious rumblings swirl in place Howling, empty and frightening Discordant and terrible Harrowing to face the truth. For it's a lie to claim there is nothing left to say There is one thing. Though we can barely bring ourselves to acknowledge it [...]
Tag: loneliness
All the Things I Should have Said on a Tuesday Afternoon
Smiles lay heavy upon our lips Our mouths empty caverns, through which jumbled alphabets clamour and spill Forming sharp stalactites and mighty stalagmites Forging treacherous paths Over time, from below and above fuse to impressive columns of silence, containing all the things never said As we grow, we tread old patterns on new paths Search [...]
Giant Leap into the Unknown
There were a lot of posts this week that spoke of the fact that, a year ago this week, March 1st to 7th, 2020, would be the last 'normal' week we would have for a while. The timing was off by a week or so, depending where in North America you were at the time, [...]
The Space You Once Were
The space you once were Calls to me, Taunts me Mocks me It knows me better than you It knows my fears My desires My loneliness It surrounds me with riling laughter and judgment Its arms like weighted blankets surround me Crushing me Its hands placed over my eyes and ears So I don't bear witness [...]
And Here We Are
How many times have I ended a thought with And here we are I miss you today I said your whole name out loud for the first time in nearly a year and it hurt so bad. I sat for a long time, crying, feeling sorry for me, and for you No one will ever [...]
3 AM Thoughts on Betrayal
Betrayal comes in whispers and screams It lies awake beside you It follows you throughout your day It looks you in the eye while it lies It's in the good mornings and good nights All the in-betweens And for a time you were innocent Engaged in the farce that played out around you What happens [...]
Rooted
You are where I'm from You are the soil in which my roots find purchase I grow because of you And even when you do not care for me I grow in spite of you Beautiful. Strong. Resilient. And yet, you are a part of me My Earth. My Home. You are my sanctuary You [...]
Dear Briar
My Dearest Briar, I send you happiest wishes for this new year. Being here, without you, has been difficult. Far more difficult than I could have ever imagined. It is in this - emptiness - that I have had the time to reflect. To make peace. To find strength. But there is nothing here. Nothing [...]
In Your Arms
There's a storm on the horizon