At once soft and brash At once complete and wanting At once fulfilled and desperate At once warm and stone At once fluid and unyielding At once bonded and separate At once mine and not Ours is at once A perfect, imperfect union Forgiving and contrarian With you, Love cannot come without sorrow And for [...]
For The Quiet - Coming November 2020 This website is very much like my journal and I tend to share things here that I may not share with just anyone. There is something comforting and protective in sitting behind the screen of a laptop and talking about the things in my life that feel like [...]
Korean Dramas teach us about the power of a kiss
How you do that Bring me to my knees with nothing but a glance The light in your eyes when they fall upon me from across a room I am spotlighted, yet no one sees Your gaze, it physically touches me Warms me I know I am safe, yet I am exposed How you manage [...]
You are where I'm from You are the soil in which my roots find purchase I grow because of you And even when you do not care for me I grow in spite of you Beautiful. Strong. Resilient. And yet, you are a part of me My Earth. My Home. You are my sanctuary You [...]
I Laugh, Alone Do you remember when Dot dot dot I fill in the blanks Left to laugh alone The smile on my face is for both of us But only I understand its sadness Yours is a plastic smile A mask It cuts deep to see you try Even deeper [...]
What does it take? Everything. All that you have. All of the time. Here I sit, trying to justify. Rationalize. Make peace And you - there. No heavy lifting. Eager to accept anything I say. I almost feel bad, If it weren't for the hole in me where those things used to go. So, I [...]
My Dearest Briar, I send you happiest wishes for this new year. Being here, without you, has been difficult. Far more difficult than I could have ever imagined. It is in this - emptiness - that I have had the time to reflect. To make peace. To find strength. But there is nothing here. Nothing [...]
My Dear Sweet Briar, Lately, I can seem to get you off my mind. I have been dreaming of you. Bittersweet dreams. Dreams that, at times, drape around my shoulders like a thick blanket. Warm and heavy, I find them comforting. It is in those times that I forget. I forget what it took to [...]
Your hand on mine is like fire It warms me, reminds me of a life I knew before Before you Before this Now I know for certain the sensation is a lie The feeling burns within me It threatens to consume me with rage, with disgust I barely recognize myself, I have stooped so low [...]
